one step closer to my future..

hey readers ! it's been a while right ?

some of you asked me what happened next ?
well, i'll tell you now ;)

today is the last day of final exams.. YEAYYYY !

but it doesn't end here..
i mean, i still have to wait for these exams' scores and the heart-beating result of "SNMPTN"
(snmptn, which is called as National Higher Education Entrance Exam in english, is university entrance selection. you just need to upload your school report from semester 1-5 ,and blablabla, and they will decide whether you'll gonna get in or not)

but just like what this post's title, i just took one step closer to my future..
i'm delighted after finishing these exams.. at least the things that have been haunting me all these time were lessen..

on the other hand, i can not laid-back
there are chances that i won't get in university by this 'snmptn' path, so i'll need to prepare my self for the worst possibility..i'll need to study for another entrance exam if i fail this one..


i'll see you next month (i mean, i'll post my story next month)
but don't wait for it, cause maybe i'll need more than one month..
it depends on my final exams' result that will be announce on 25^th may and my snmptn result on 28^th may

so, wish me luck, k ? ;) i really need 'luck' this time..

dear readers..

Hey there.. It’s been a long time since the last time I posted something here, right?
This time, I’m back. 
Well, not the real ‘back’. I’m just posting my journal (not sure if this one is a journal or not) in order to accomplish mrs.X’s assignment (I’ll keep her name as a secret in order to make the readers wondering who is she. Mystery is cool, right?)

So, how’s life?  Easy?  Breezy? Beautiful?

For me, it’s suck. I screwed up all my life. And I scared that I’ll ruin things and my future. Being in the ‘last year’ of senior high school are frightening. Why? It’s all because there’re so many things that we need to decide in our life. And so many things that we need to pass in order to get closer to our future. One wrong step will make me suffer for the rest of my life (I guess). So, it’s hard for me to take a step when I’m scared with the possibility of screwing up.

Facing all these exams which I’m not good at doesn't feel good, too. I mean, the possibility of failing these exams always haunt my mind. I’m scared that the truth is not kind enough for me. Taking all this pressure on both of my shoulder is really hard. And sharing my problems with other people won’t help and it will only increase their pressure. I don’t want to be such a burden for them..

So, it'll be better for me to depend on my self for doing the best and preparing for the worst possibility(which I’m sure that I’ll never ready to face it)..