dear readers..

Hey there.. It’s been a long time since the last time I posted something here, right?
This time, I’m back. 
Well, not the real ‘back’. I’m just posting my journal (not sure if this one is a journal or not) in order to accomplish mrs.X’s assignment (I’ll keep her name as a secret in order to make the readers wondering who is she. Mystery is cool, right?)

So, how’s life?  Easy?  Breezy? Beautiful?

For me, it’s suck. I screwed up all my life. And I scared that I’ll ruin things and my future. Being in the ‘last year’ of senior high school are frightening. Why? It’s all because there’re so many things that we need to decide in our life. And so many things that we need to pass in order to get closer to our future. One wrong step will make me suffer for the rest of my life (I guess). So, it’s hard for me to take a step when I’m scared with the possibility of screwing up.

Facing all these exams which I’m not good at doesn't feel good, too. I mean, the possibility of failing these exams always haunt my mind. I’m scared that the truth is not kind enough for me. Taking all this pressure on both of my shoulder is really hard. And sharing my problems with other people won’t help and it will only increase their pressure. I don’t want to be such a burden for them..

So, it'll be better for me to depend on my self for doing the best and preparing for the worst possibility(which I’m sure that I’ll never ready to face it)..