world's lullaby, rain..

i stop counting at how many times i've fallen in love for rain since a long time ago..
then i stop asking my self why rain mean so much to me since there're way too much answers for this..

but smelling the scent of rain, how can i possibly resist it ?
and listening to the harmony of raindrops, definitely as comfort as mom's and dad's lullaby..
and those memories that will cross your mind every time the rain starts pouring..

for me, every time the rain starts pouring and while the wind is blowing, a whisper comes through my ear, "you'll be okay. everything will just be okay one day. even the storm will not last forever and the rainbow will show up eventually." and then, some sweet and sour memories would come to my mind and remind my self that i've go through so much bitterness and sweetness, so why would i be worried about ? those bitterness would go by anyway..

karena harus sekarang, bukan nanti ataupun kemarin

"terseok-seok" menjalani segala sistem kali ini. why ? karena kesombongan, kebodohan, dan malas. sombong karena merasa bisa,bodoh karena malas, malas karena sombong. dan ya, penyesalan selalu datang di akhir.

bisakah mengulang semuanya dan menghapus sejarah ? tentu tidak bisa, selamanya sejarah kelam akan tetap ada.
tapi bisakah mengukir sejarah baru untuk menutupi sejarah kelam tersebut ?
YA, BISA. karena masa lalu adalah masa lalu, kesalahan masa lalu biarlah menjadi pelajaran. malu dengan kesalahan yang sudah diperbuat ? maka tutupilah kesalahan tersebut dengan tidak melakukan kesalahan lagi.
karena yang terpenting adalah sekarang. kenapa ? sekaranglah yang akan menentukan masa depan, sekaranglah yang akan menentukan sejarah kita nantinya, dan hanya sekaranglah yang bisa memperbaiki kesalahan kesalahan kita kemarin.
susah ? iya susah, tapi bukankah kita sudah menyesal dan malu dengan kesalahan yang kita perbuat ? mau malu dan menyesal lagi ? tidak, tentu tidak. maka dari itu, mulailah dari sekarang, ingatlah setiap rasa malu dan sedih dan frustasi dan takut yang kita rasakan akibat kesalahan tersebut, dan berdirilah kembali dengan kokoh di atas rasa malu, takut, dan penyesalan tersebut.

no body says it was easy

if it's the right choice, why it hurts ?
if i choose it for my own sake, why i'm not happy ?
is it right or wrong ?
i'm the cruel one, but why am i crying right now ?

cold cherry

been away from writing things for more than half a year. i do accepted in my 1st choice university and i wrote about it. but then i found out that i never ever have people that truly read my post, and seems like the ones that commented on my post are just spam, i'm loosing my reasons to post, up until now.

well, you know, if you are my friends, or you read my posts, at least you would know that for all my life i've been dreaming about being a doctor. and i never ever want to be anything else for my future job. but suddenly, i got chocked and realized. do i really wanna be a doctor even if everyone don't tell me so ? what would i choose or what would i be if no one tell me about being a doctor since i was a kid ? well, i can't answer it, and it just pops out of my mind so i really have no idea why it suddenly comes up at a time like this.

and that's all , i have no time for the 'unreal' people who views my post, i have no time for checking my grammar (since no one reads, no one will care with my wrong grammar, so i don't need to double check, triple check, or even centuple check)


and for the tittle, i really have no idea what to write so i just wrote those words that keep staying in my mind all this week